I GOTTA LAUGH TO KEEP FROM CRYING!

OMG! Has it been a whole year? I just looked at the date of my last entry on here & I can NOT BELIEVE IT WAS A YEAR AGO, ALMOST TO THE DAY! That ain't even funny...THAT'S SAD!!! I done sat up here in a depressed state & didn't even know it! My body was aching all over, sometimes I wouldn't eat at all & other times I'd commit gluttony(sin of over eating)! I was only doing enough to get by, the bare minimum! I was up, down & all around! Sometimes I wanted to be bothered & other times I didn't! I kept seeing that commercial..."where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE! Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE! Cymbalta can help... then it stated about 100 side affects that made it seem like I'd be better off just staying depressed! LOL That's crazy!!! LOL I've been through some things, heavy hitters, but not enough to make me be depressed or oppressed for years, at least I didn't think so!
I'm not making fun of depressed people or people who take meds for it, I'm just talking about me!!! WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED TO ME? How long have I actually been this way? Could it still be post partum depression? Surely not...my baby is 10 YEARS OLD for pete's sake! LOL, it can't last THAT long, can it? LOL I don't get it, I was always laughing at myself, someone or something when I was out, but curled up in the fetal position, covered up, feeling blue when I got home! EVERYDAY AIN'T SUPPOSED TO BE A RAINY LIFETIME MOVIE DAY!!! There were a lot of times when I didn't even want to go out, not with friends or family, nobody!!! I knew something was wrong, but I didn't understand how I could be that way when, gosh darn it, I'M A CHILD OF THE KING!!! I'M A DIAMOND IN THE ROUGH! I'M DESTINED FOR GREATNESS! I'M ON A MISSION FOR THE LORD!!! Then it hit me like a ton of bricks! I had an AH HA moment, I realized...THAT'S IT! I'M A TARGET! LOL

Well, I have had good days & enjoyable times, I have not been down all the time, but I told my 2 besties that I knew I could be collecting a check for what I was going through! LOL At times, I felt nuttier than a fruitcake! LOL I'm talking about me, not nobody else, 'cept me! So, please don't be offended! In my aspiring career, I'd surely fit right in!!! Lots of great people in the limelight have suffered from depression & been targets, needing therapy and or medication, etc. Anyone who knows me, should know just what I mean!

I HAVE TRULY FOUND LAUGHTER TO BE ALL THE MEDICINE I NEED! GOD HAS PLACED IT IN ME, I CAN'T RUN FROM IT NOR DO I WANT TO! THE CHURCH I ATTEND IS A GODSEND, MY PASTOR IS HIGHLY ANOINTED, BUT HILARIOUS AT THE SAME TIME! EVERY WEEK I GET CONFIRMATIONS & POSITIVE SPIRITUAL FOOD, WISDOM IMPARTED UPON ME! THE ENERGY THERE IS THROUGH THE ROOF & THERE IS NO WAY I CAN SIT UNDER GOD'S ANOINTING & LEAVE THE SAME WAY I CAME! I ALWAYS PRAY THAT GOD OPEN MY EARS TO HEAR HIM & THAT I LEAVE BETTER THAN WHEN I CAME! GOD IS SO FAITHFUL!

I have started back writing, acting & facebook has become one of my platforms for ministry! I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT WHAT GOD IS DOING! I'VE BEEN DELIVERED FROM THE SPIRIT OF DEPRESSION, PRAISE GOD! Where does depression hurt? EVERYWHERE! Who does depression hurt? EVERYONE! JESUS CAN HELP!!!

ROLLING ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING MY BUTT OFF, BECAUSE I'M ELATED TO BE FREE!!! I GOT AWAY!!! YAAAAY!!!


















Proverbs 17:22 Amplified Version A happy heart is good medicine and a cheerful mind works healing, but a broken spirit dries up the bones.